The great depression

I guess I am one of those people who suffers during the holidays.
I don't know what it is but I don't have the holiday spirit that I once enjoyed when I was younger.
Right now I only think about how there are lots and lots of other people who can not have a merry christmas and won't enjoy a happy new year.
I have everything and a bright future ahead of me so I don't want to incur any pity.
I'm just saying out loud that I wish everyone would take a moment to look around them and decide how much is enough. I'm not saying I am not the greediest person on this earth, I don't have that much, but there are some of us who have way to much to have to acquire more at others expense.
One example is the oil folks who will rake in billions of dollars of profit while some people will freeze to death because they will not be able to afford to pay for heat this winter. Billions of dollars profit. Not a nice bit of change but so much money that they will have to stretch their imaginations to figure out how to spend more loot on something that they will rarely use.
Those are the types of people I wish would become a little nicer.
I will try to give away all the time I can to help someone else since my effort will cost me more than mere cash. Even that won't make much of a ripple but it will make me feel a little better.
The material christmas will ever be the curse we suffer while we purchase cheap crap that no one really needs.
We used to celebrate christmas for different reasons didn't we?
I did and do enjoy receiving presents.
I do enjoy shopping for something that might put a smile on someones face if only for a moment.
Money is not the issue.
People living in fear, dying because other people don't care, suffering because we all are guilty of not caring about anyone but ourselves isn't really the issue.
I have no idea what the issue is.
Maybe my deepening depression is worrying me because I have nothing else to complain about right now.
Ain't that rough?
Poor me.
We will all find out what life is all about.
By then it will be a little late eh?
I am such a sap.
Happy Christmas to everyone and a Merry New Year as well.
I'll try to lighten up.

Now I'm even worse

Life is always a trial isn't it?
Leading us on a journey where we hope to find the answers to all of our questions as we learn new things.
Why then is the addition of new input so discouraging to me?
Why didn't anyone ever tell the truth?
Why cannot we all get along?
I don't have 'it all' nor do I require all that I want. Life was given to me for me to live right? Not for me to just be a snotty little brat who gets what ever he (or she) wants.
What I do want is one nights peaceful sleep without the need or use of something to help me forget that the world is spinning down to it's own self destruction with a little help from our friends who think they are in charge.
I had a little discussion with my co-worker today about leisure time and his desire was that he wanted the time to do nothing.
Maybe I mis-understood him and he meant he wanted the time to do nothing but what he wanted.
My own opinion, which means nothing, is that I'd like to have leisure time to do what I want after I have to do what I need to do to support myself.
If I won the lottery and had everything I need and wanted handed to me I'd have to figure out something new (weird) to desire since there is nothing I would need and I do not know if I am capable of of such deep thoughts since I already have everything I want.
So far that is.
I have not been exposed to all there is out there yet I imagine.
Strange.
I got a little indignant with the puke (co-worker) cause it sounds to me like he never heard the word 'no' in his life.
Precocious.
Mommy's and daddy's little angel who never knew what is was like to not excel at whatever he tried at. (with all the help money can buy I assume) (you know what happens when we assume anything right?)
Maybe he is right and I am wrong.
After all this time I'm wrong.
Thank goodness.
I'm getting tired of being right all the time.
Perfection is something to achieve I guess. When you are perfect it is something to continue to dread.
I'm not perfect.
Close but no cigar.
I don't even want to be.
As far as those people who think they are in charge of us...
Guess what. You remain in "charge" only as long as you do what we want you to.
The mass will roll over the few.
In our case, those of us who live allow you to play as long as you play nice. When you cross the line we have nothing to live for any longer and we will put a stop to you once and for all.
Check the history books.
Always happens that way huh?
People matter, governments don't.
Tell us what we want to hear and don't try to fool us with what you think you can get away with.
We know that things are not so grand out there.
You have the power but you squander the time you have.
Time will tell.
Joe Blow will spit on the grave of the richest man (or woman) after he buries them and call it a day.
No one cares in the long run.
Do you want to be Cesar of Rome?
He is dead.
What did he have?
Everything.
What was out there that he didn't have?
Everything.
All the room I have I guess. It's been a good day.